The sudden urge to blog.

Im still recovering from new year fever, literally. Firdaus has been nagging on me to take my meds which is so hard to do bcos i love my bed to much to get out of it. He worries too much when i get sick and i really mean too much. And i still dont get why. I rarely get sick, maybe once in every 3 months? I feel like a healthy person but truth to be told, i definitely am not.

Its 3pm, and everyone in the house is sleeping! Cmon... its late in the afternoon and ppl shld be up enjoying the hot sun and not napping. Actually, i wouldnt want to enjoy the hot sun either. I would rather be on the bed. Yes, i love it way too much. That aside, i can already foresee a long wordy post.

Something happened recently which opened my eyes. I usually have high tolerance level to what people have to say about me or Firdaus. I mean i try my best not to let this words affect me too much. But sometimes this same people dont get the idea. Silence doesnt mean approval. First off,  i have this mindset that if you were to find faults with someone, make sure you're standing on firm ground. In other words, make sure no matter how im gg to relatiate, you will always be right and i will have no way of rocking your boat. Secondly, would what you say reflect back onto you? Will it look like you're actually talking about yourself? And lastly, make sure you can finish what you started. This is something which i totally stand by upon. Do not start something which you cant finish or end up at the other side of the table. Its either you finish it and you better have a rock hard argument or dont start at all. Oh ya one more thing, dont ever try to make someone else's problems yours and get involved especially if you yourself have problems.

I admit i am not perfect. And that is a constantly used line. No one is perfect. I have my flaws and i know them, personally i must say. But for someone to tell me things which are 1. Not true and 2. Way out of line, is gg over the limits that i have put for myself. Everyone has their patience and sad to say, i kinda lost mine somewhere.

Firdaus used to bug me to say something whenever im not happy with anyone but i never did listen. And i should have listened. But somehow, its a good thing i never listened. As it taught me how to pick wisely with whom i give my trust and everything else. And now i can proudly say that i am standing my ground and not ever gg back to something which i am starting to hate. And thankyou to Firdaus who kinda helped me open my eyes to all the things that i let pass me.

With love,
Shasha