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2012-01-12T01:03:00.006+08:00

This blog has been left to collect imaginary electronic dust for the past few months. I dont really have the time to update or even the thought of updating. I kinda totally forgot that this existed for awhile. But as always, this will be one place i let go of all my thoughts, my problems, my rants and whatever else thoh its pretty much abandoned by everyone else.

2011 has been a good year. Lots of ups and downs. Everyone had their fair share of problems and happy moments, i had mine too. It wasnt really a smooth year, well every year isnt smooth for me. But i found something i thought i will eventually give up on.. LOVE. Yes, as cliche as it sounds, it actually is true. I have loved, i have lost, i have cried.. and at a certain point of time i felt like giving up. Someone came into my life, in October 2010. He was the one who helped me pick up the pieces. Showed me what life meant. That person is.. Muhamad Firdaus.

I have been in and out of love for countless times. Be it, monkey love or what i thought was true love. He showed me something else, what its like to really love someone with all your heart. What its like to feel like you're his world. I was happy, and alhamdullilah, still am. I never really thought someone like him existed till he showed up right infront of me. We had our problems, but we always managed to overcome all of it to be where we are today. Honestly, ive never felt this happy with someone before. He really does light up my life. He showers me with love every single day.

He also did teach me something along the way. The meaning of appreciation. He opened up my eyes to alot of things. And for that, i love him. With all my heart. I really cant imagine how my life would be without someone like him, who made me realise how important love is to someone's life. He touched my heart like no other.

Thankyou Muhamad Firdaus for all the little things you've done. For everything. We are almost a year now and insyallah more years to come. You've changed me into a better person, someone i thought i will never become. Even with all the things that has happened, i still love you the same, not any lesser. In fact, even more each day.

A belated Happy New Year to everybody!

With love,

Shasha.

2011-09-23T12:27:00.002+08:00

I dont need anyone else but you.

Love, Shasha.

2011-05-16T02:53:00.000+08:00

I am done. For real this time.

2011-04-24T03:42:00.001+08:00

You have brains to think. So why wont you use it? You said i took advantage of you, forgot all your kindness and now.. why are you still looking for me? I dont have the time to try and defend myself. Why? Bcos its pointless. Why should i try and make things look so sweet and simple when all thts stuffed in your head is negativity?

Ive gone thru this over and over again. Telling me tht they can always tolerate with all my moodswings and tantrums but at the end of the day, the same old bullshit line "Everyone has their limits" Im sorry, but i dont take tht as a reason especially since you told me tht no matter what happens, you can take it. Thts just a whole load of bull coming from you.

Im done. I cant take this anymore.

2011-03-26T15:45:00.003+08:00

Its sad to know that the people close to you now seems like strangers. If i had to choose, i would pick you. But i cant risk my happiness for yours.

Love, its just so complicated.

2011-03-14T01:05:00.003+08:00

My lazyness is taking control of my life, i really need to get back on track.

School? A disaster. Exams just ended.

Work? I got a job. All i need is to just commit 3 days per week and tht is just hard for me. Told ya my lazyness is taking control. This is what happens when ive not worked in ages.

Friends? Sometimes i would rather have none when they piss me off. But at the end of the day, they have been the ones who have been there for me thru alot. And i dont know what would have happened if it werent for them.

Love? Just blissful.

Life? I HAVE A LIFE UH?

Bye.

2011-02-25T13:08:00.001+08:00

Do i need anything more? ♥

2011-01-31T00:54:00.006+08:00

Ive been neglecting this blog for way too long. I dont feel the need to blog almost everyday anymore, actually i dont feel the need to blog at all. But i dont have the heart to just delete everything. I guess bcos this has been my way of letting things go, letting everything out and making myself feel better. So i shouldnt neglect it too much i guess?

This new year wasnt such a good start. Things didnt really go my way as i hoped but i manage to just take it in my stride and move forward. What other choice do i have? I mean i cant possibly sit and cry for the rest of the months and years to come and keep waiting. Ive got a life, i have to move on and pick up the pieces. The pieces of my life tht i left behind. Chey. Haha.

School has been pretty manageable, classes being cancelled almost everyday, wasting time with the classmates. I really dnt know why i bother coming to school at times, but who cares? Atleast my attendance counts.

Only time will tell how much you mean to me, and how much i appreciate having you by my side. Thank you, sincerely.

2010-12-29T00:32:00.002+08:00

Before the year ends...

IM GLAD 2010 IS GG TO BE OVER SOON! IM DONE WITH ALL THE BULLSHITS AND HEARTBREAKS AND PROBLEMS. HERE COMES THE NEW YEARRRRRRRRRRRRR!

2011, YOU BETTER BE GOOD BBY.

2010-12-19T13:55:00.002+08:00

I love the way life is gg for me now. Not bg tied down by any relationship, family bg an awesome bunch, great friends surrounding me.. what more can i ask for?

Its the holidays bby! Nothing really to look forward to, but im sure there will be upcoming plans which i will enjoy for the rest of the holidays^^

What else? Nothing. Bye.

2010-12-10T20:47:00.002+08:00

AFTER 4 LONGGGG MONTHS OF CRAVING.. TADAAAAAAAAA!
Thankyou for the awesome surprise thoh it wasnt such a surprise. Thankyou for the awesome day thoh it was really a normal friday afternoon. Thankyou for making me smile from ear to ear although i smile alot everyday.

Im a happy girl, thanks to you ♥

2010-12-08T23:09:00.002+08:00

I HATE SCHOOL PROJECTS.

I am bored. Taking a break from the project thoh i didnt do much. I have got no freaking idea what to put in. With not much help given by anybody and the deadline like in 2 days... i feel like giving up and just failing it thoh its pretty much 70% of the overall.

AIYA HELP ME LAH I DONT FEEL LIKE DG ANYTHING ALR.

Everyday is a better day knowing you're there.

2010-12-07T23:08:00.005+08:00

I realised it isnt such a bad year after all ♥

Time will only tell how i feel. Rushing will only end up in disappointment. I might be hard to read but as time goes by, you'll realise tht what i am inside tells a different story. Your concern brightens my day, your constant calls and txts put a smile on my face. Back thn, i wouldnt even notice you.. but now all i can see is a whole new chapter, a whole new book. If it werent for our friends, none of this would have happen. To have someone to listen to me nag, to hear how terrible or how awesome my day went, to entertain me during the times i feel like talking a whole lot of bullshits and to have someone to try and cool me down when im extremely pissed off over a trivial matter is just breathtaking. Even your thoughtfulness lightens up my spirits. Its great how i can sit with you for hours and talk about everything and anything, feeling comfortable and bg able to forget tht time existed and we werent the only souls in the world. I can never explain the reasons for this feelings, but all i know is.. you mean alot.

My actions may disappoint you, my words may hurt you but this is me. And you'll have to accept me for who i am and what ive become. I cant promise you a perfect relationship without arguments over our differences and trust issues, however, i can promise you as long as you're trying, im staying.

So tell me, do you think you're special now?

2010-12-02T01:46:00.001+08:00

IM IN BALI BITCHESSSSSSSSSSS. One more day and im home!

2010-11-23T00:08:00.002+08:00

THE HARDEST DECISION I EVER HAVE TO MAKE.

2010-11-21T12:33:00.002+08:00

Im moving on bcos i have to, not bcos i want to.

2010-11-20T15:07:00.003+08:00

I cant believe i actually have the thoughts of letting go. Let's hope i have the courage to go thru this on my own and not turn back and regret my actions. One mistake and its all down the drain.

2010-11-20T02:16:00.005+08:00

HAH. THINGS ARE LOOKING BETTER MY FOOT. ARGH FUCK YOU.

2010-11-19T20:24:00.007+08:00

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash,

You tossed it in the trash, you did.

To give me all your love is all I ever asked

As much as i believe in karma, i dont think this is karma. This is bullshit, all the times i tried to make us work just seems to go down the drain. Yes, a simple comment could ruin me. Especially if the comment doesnt have much words but contains much meaning. If you were serious, you wouldnt be dg all this bullshit. Just rmbr, if you can do it.. i can do it too. Im gg to start lying now bcos bg honest just doesnt prove its point.

All the times i stayed true, and look what happens. NOTHING. FREAKING NOTHING. No, i cant be patient anymore. And no, i cant keep myself mum anymore. What do you think i am? A plank of wood? Ive got feelings, unless you didnt realise tht either. Whats the point of having a brain if you cant think?

ARGH WHY AM I WASTING MY TIME ON THIS BULLSHIT ANYWAY?

2010-11-15T21:52:00.002+08:00

There are too many things on my mind tht it makes me lose sleep. Perhaps again its just paranoia. I try my best to brush it off but the thoughts just keep flooding back. Im being patient, so very patient tht im turning into a bitch. My emotions have been taking over me and its affecting everyone around me. The small outburst i had last weekend totally wrecked me. Idk why but i let such a little things take control of me.

Ive got to stop all this bullshit. If i could control my emotions back then, why cant i now? Fingers crossed, im gg to be back to normal soon.

2010-11-11T20:36:00.002+08:00

School has been draining out all my energy lately, all thanks to the long hours in school. No, not awesome at all. The first thing i do when i get home is to sleep and my supposed nap turns out to be a long sleep till the next morning. And even with tht much sleep, i still feel sleepy when i get to school. Perhaps thts bcos i dont enjoy bg in school tht much. Not like i have a choice, told my parents im gg to finish the course whether i like it or not.. so ive got to do it. Urgh the torture.

Not looking forward to the weekends this week. Hasnim not booking out. We were supposed to talk this weekend but unfortunately for me, it wont happen. Tuesday pls come quick.

November isnt bg good to me. Problems after problems and the thought of having to go thru so much literally kills me. With all the problems, thn comes my overbearing moodswings. Not tht i can help it, it just comes and attacks everyone around me. Hasnim got it bad for the last few days, having to listen to me cry and get mad and suddenly be happy. Im afraid of myself sometimes, its just creepy to have all the emotions in such a short time.

GEP trip to Bali with the class is confirmed. Im kinda psyched for it. 18 more days!

I miss tht boy.

2010-11-02T18:16:00.004+08:00

SCHOOL = SUCKS.

The timetable is not much of a diffrence frm last semester. So much for a better timetable, thts just bullshit. I dont mind tht much but to have to come back in the afternoon for lessons? Thts just unfair. Actually there is no point in me saying anything, bcos obviously my words dont carry any weight.

Dont expect me to be quiet when you dont deserve my respect. You can act like a bitch, i can be much worse. So try.

2010-10-15T20:54:00.001+08:00

EVERYONE IS JUST SELF CENTRED. OMG WHY DO I BOTHER ANYWAY?

2010-10-09T01:43:00.003+08:00

Yes, ive been gone for awhile now. I dont have the drive to blog anymore or feel like theres a need to.

Ive been trying to cope with alot of things around me. Especially with the recent argument i had with someone close to me. We dont talk anymore and ive been avoiding home and making myself busy with other things eversince it happened. I still remember how the whole episode began but i wont knw when it will end. Im still bg patient as i dont wish to make things anymore worst thn it already is. It seems like history is repeating itself but i have no power to change anything. Partly its my fault but im growing up and some things are just unavoidable as much as i hate it. Im sorry.

On a brighter note, things between me and Hasnim are looking up. Yes, im happy. No, i am actually overjoyed and i have never felt this way for a long time. We're talking more now, meeting each other often on days he gets to book out and it enlightens me knowing tht he loves me, still. Thoh we might not be the same as we were before, im glad tht we have gone this far and still are on good terms. Bcos at the end of the day, i knw he is there for me.. always (:

Hasnim's small bday celebration which i planned turned out really well and he loves the gift which totally made me smile the whole day. Hehehhe mentel.

It's still the holidays now. Sadly, its back to school on Monday. I hope this semester i would try and make an effort to go to school more often and improve on my results. I want to finish up this course with a Nitec cert and actually do it with my own hard work not bcos of my advisor's sympathy or whatever else. And oh, i got my results for the exam which i kinda studied for. My results werent tht bad. I got a 2.9 GPA which i believe isnt tht bad, especially since i was always absent frm school and all. But still, i managed to pass. And i also believe i can do so much better if i put in abit more effort. Aiming for a higher GPA lah obviously^^

Tht aside.. PAY IS IN!

Im done, bye.

2010-10-06T01:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY BBY (:

2010-09-23T05:35:00.001+08:00

Honestly, all i can think about is you. Shall we go back to how we used to be?

H♥

2010-09-21T00:44:00.003+08:00

I DONT GIVE A DONKEY ASS IF YOU WANT TO TAKE MY WORDS LIGHTLY BCOS AT THE END OF THE DAY, ITS YOUR LIFE AND IM NO ONE TO INTERFERE. DO WHAT YOU THINK IS RIGHT LAH EH. AKU DAH MALAS, BETOL. BYE.

2010-09-20T00:59:00.004+08:00

Im not a piece of paper where you scribble all those meaningful words and phrases and throw away when you think it has no meaning for you anymore. Consider my feelings before you do things. You might not know it, but you're hurting me. Ahhh cbcbcbcbbcbcbc binget uh.

I havent done a proper update in ages. I just dont have the drive to blog anymore, no inspirations, no fun happening stories to type. Everything is pretty much the same old dull things over and over again, im getting quite tired of it thoh.

Hari raye hasnt really been such a joyous occasion. It kinda feels boring, maybe its just me or is everyone not in the mood for raya this year? Haha but tht hasnt stop ppl frm planning to visit each other houses. 27th and 2 oct.. jalan raye with the mates. Hopefully the plan wont turn out to be as bad as last year.

YESAAAAAAAAH ITS HOLIDAY BBYS! Thts the only thing at the moment which is keeping my spirits up. ^^

2010-09-18T22:57:00.002+08:00

I NEED HELP. A LISTENING EAR, ANYTHING.

2010-09-17T11:57:00.004+08:00

I dnt knw what i would do without you girls.

Oh, exams over. PARTAAAAAYYYYYY TIME!

2010-09-14T02:06:00.002+08:00

EXAMINATIONS = AKU MALAS LAHHHHHHHHH.

2010-09-10T14:30:00.005+08:00

My hiatus shall end here by me only saying..

ITS HARI RAYA BBYYSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

Thousand apologies to those who i have offended in any way whether big or small, long or short, straight or crooked. Once you've accepted this, the trouble will start all over again and i'll apologise the following year okay? Yayy you guys (:

2010-08-29T18:00:00.002+08:00

HIATUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

I'll be still in active on twitter thoh (:

2010-08-27T02:22:00.003+08:00

I just need time, alot of time.

Perhaps i should go on hiatus. I dont have the drive to blog anymore. All the things tht i hope will go my way isnt anymore. I feel like just leaving it all behind but i just dont have the courage to do so. Im still fickle, idk what i want or what i intend to do. I need all the help i can get but at the end of the day, the decision still lies with me. My happiness is at stake and my choice will either make or break me. So now what?

2010-08-22T13:34:00.002+08:00

Seriously, all this constant naggings is making me nuts. If you have a problem with the way i lead my life, say it to me upfront. I dont need you to say it out loud just so tht i could hear, come and say it in my face. I would gladly appreaciate tht. You make me out to be such a bad example for the family, make me look like im the one who is always in the wrong.. but did you for once see his mistakes? Oh wait, no. He seems to be such an angel in your eyes. You compliment him over everything, nothing he does is ever wrong. Screw this man. Im tired of bg the one who has to shoulder everything.

Im tired lah seriously. Nothing i ever do is right. Things are supposed to get better, but as you can see.. nothing has changed. So what am i supposed to do? I put in effort, you dont see it and when i give up on trying, tadaaaaaaa! You see it. Then the cycle starts all over again.

Screw all this uhhhhhhhhhhhhh i give up already.

2010-08-21T01:33:00.003+08:00

I dont need anything else, just you and them and i'll be happy.

2010-08-19T15:51:00.003+08:00

You made me fall in love.

Somethings just cant be explained. Like how i fell in love with you so fast, like how i feel like you mean the world to me. We barely knw each other but it feels like we've known each other for ages. You make me smile each day without realising. When the phone rings and your name comes up, it simply just brightens up my day. Thankyou so much, boy.

2010-08-17T02:08:00.003+08:00

Whats the point of a holiday if we still have to go to school? I mean.. we're supposed to have 2 weeks OFF from school. But thn, we still have to come back for lessons. Thn might as well you dont give us a holiday. Pointless, totally. Oh man, this is one of the reasons to why i hate school. Now you tell me, how am i supposed to be so enthusiastic about school when they cant even give us a little bit of holiday?

Okay, sidetrack abit.. IVE GOT MY BAJU RAYA! Yayy, so tht means i dont have to go to the busy streets of Geylang again just for the sake of buying someting to wear for raya. So mad excited for raya thoh its only a week of puase.

I finally get to meet Farit later, i suke sekali. (:

2010-08-16T01:38:00.003+08:00

Im having one of those PMS moments where everything seems out of place and all my emotions seems to be jumbled up. I hate feeling this way, im trying not to let it affect me but my efforts seems to be failing. Suddenly, alot of thoughts are running thru my head.. all the regrets, all the decisions. I need help.

Idk what to do uh.

2010-08-15T03:30:00.003+08:00

Movie date with Bro ysterday evening was awesome. We dont really spend time with each other much nowadays as he's busy with work and me with school and sleeping. Hehe, so ysterday was pretty much well spent. I shared alot of my problems with him and i seriously think he didnt even pay attention to what i was saying. Talking in the cinema like we were the only two ppl in the theatre, joking while waiting for the food... wahhh i love my brother uh (:

I miss Farit.

2010-08-13T01:29:00.003+08:00

The date today always brings me bad luck. Let's hope this year something good comes out of today. Im really crossing my fingers over what will happen in school later on. No more fooling around, i have to start taking school seriously and i cant just say it bcos my actions have always shown the opposite. So i must strt proving everyone wrong and make things right.

I cant wait to meet Farit later on in the evening ^^

2010-08-12T00:40:00.003+08:00

Since its the fasting month.. Im gg to,
- Save like crazy.
- Lose weight.
- Strt dg sit up before i sleep.
- START COMING TO SCHOOL OFTEN.

I knw the start coming to school often part has nothing to do with the fasting month. But i have put tht in my head. Im like on the edge of the plank right now and one wrong move.. byebye shasha. So must must must buckup.

Okay, bye.

2010-08-11T00:36:00.004+08:00

Fasting month. Lets just hope i actually fast for this whole month. Minus all the times which i cant fast. Fasting is seriously a challenge especially since all i can think about is food. Oh man, what a torture. On the bright side, its the time where i can actually lose some weight. Well, only if i dont eat like crazy when its time to break fast. Hehe, i eat like a pig what dyou expect? Not proud of it okay.

Anywho.. i kinda forgot tht school existed for awhile. All the talks about bucking up seems to have gone missing somewhere. I dont put in effort anymore and its totally pathetic. Its always the beginning only when i actually bother to come to school and pay attention, after a few months.. gone. Haha.

Holidays are around the corner and i seriously cant wait for it especially since ive been lazy to go to school. Maybe this is the time for me to find a permanent part time job so i can strt supporting myself and stop complaining about bg broke. Who knows i might even be working with Zhiela. Another good thing about the holidays is.. im gg to SHANGHAI bbys~ It might only be for 5 days 4 nights but then still, its my first time on a plane. So im excited shitless. ^^

Im glad tht we're still talking. It wasnt such a bad decision after all yeah?

2010-08-08T22:10:00.003+08:00

Instead of having only one niece over, ive got two today. And unfortunately for me, ive got to babysit them for now. Sissy is out with her friends and she left Wawa here as Wawa will be watching the parade with Mama and Papa tmrw. And oh, not to forget Fisha is tagging along too. So which means, ive got two cute but annoying kids sleeping on the same bed as me. Thts not the bad thing, the bad thing is... they sleep like they're fighting for their lives in a war. Omg, im gg to get bruises when i wake up tmrw morning. Pls, just kill me now. -.-

Today is totally draggy, really. I stayed home hoping tht there would be something to do but in the end, there was nothing to do. I really wish i had some cash with me right now and i would happily go out.

The boy is working and im bored. Habes keje cepat lah, haiya.

2010-08-07T11:59:00.002+08:00

I dont wish to get involved in anyone's problem anymore. Dont tell me about it, dont expect any help from me bcos at the end of the day, im the one who is blamed for lending a helping hand. I thought helping is a good thing, but now i realised its not.

2010-08-05T22:55:00.002+08:00

School officially sucks. Why? Bcos in time to come, im gg to have to go for counselling due to my constant late coming and missing school. Oh really, fml. Not entirely my fault tht Prawn is constantly being an ass though supposingly its for our own good. Oh man... 1 year plus to go. And oh, not to forget tht we now have to officially follow the timetable which means im gg to finish school at 7 on Mondays and 630 or later on every other day except for Friday.

Ive been letting alot of things affect me. Especially school. And just thinking about it stresses me up. I did say tht no matter what happens, im not gg to let it disrupt my life. But then, whatever is happening now is seriously turning things upside down.

Fuck, really.

2010-08-04T00:53:00.003+08:00

I havent been taking school seriously for the past week. Ohhh man, this is bad. Let's hope tht this sudden change wont last for a long time bcos if it does, welcome back history!

Anyway, i should be asleep at this hour but due to the fact tht i just woke up from a nap which was supposed to be only for a an hour but unexpectedly bcame 6 hours.. i cant go back to sleep. I woke up feeling really hungry only to rmbr tht Mama didnt cook anything. I feel like dying now. Im really hungry right now and i would kill for a plate of rice with a little gravy.

I am bored, really really bored. Look at the time, its almost 1 and i just washed my uniform. I have to wear it to school later and if it doesnt dry by this morning, im gg to be dead. Oh shitssssssss, prangai last min sia.

Farit, mane kau sia? ^^

2010-08-01T23:42:00.002+08:00

At the end of the day, i know i will always have you girls.
Forever and always. <3>

2010-07-27T02:24:00.003+08:00

As im sitting here at this late hour, feeling sleepy.. alot of things are running through my mind. Smoking usually helps to ease out the thoughts, but this time its not working. I want to rest my eyes but my eyes wont seem to stay shut. Im tired, im sleepy, im exhausted from the day but all this doesnt help me sleep at all. I will not let what has happened affect me. Im happy, im happy with this decision and i will not look back, not even once anymore. Yes, i said tht before but for once, i want this to be real.

Ive got school later on at 8 and i cant be late. My irregular sleeping pattern will surely make me suffer in school later. Alot of tests are coming up but ive not even touched my notes at all except when im school. This is bad especially since i want to do well. Wth, i seem to have not grown out of my secondary school habits. If this keeps up, im gg to fail just like how i failed TSS.

Now, im gg to switch off this laptop and seriously try and sleep. Ive got less thn 4 hours to sleep and lets all hope tht im not gg to be late for operations later on. I seriously do not wish to be screamed at by the prawn bcos everyone knows how i tend to react when someone screams right at my face.

So gd late night.

2010-07-26T13:55:00.001+08:00

Now i feel the hurt.

2010-07-25T03:34:00.002+08:00

It happened, again. Maybe its meant to be this way, maybe this is for the best. For once, i didnt disagree not bcos i dont love you but bcos i love you too much tht i have to do this. Im sorry for all the times i disappointed you, for all the misdeeds, and for everthing. No matter what, you will forever be the one who changed my life.

I need a breather. I feel suffocated all of a sudden. Why?

Anyway, thankyou Zhiela Dayah & Mimie. I dont have to explain why i love you guys so much, i just do bcos you guys are just awesome.

2010-07-24T15:39:00.002+08:00

Ive been thinking alot lately. I have to make a decision, and i dont know what to do. And at this moment, i havent told anyone about it. Maybe it isnt the right time, maybe im thinking on impulse. No, its not paranoia anymore. Idk. Shitsssss.

Anywho, its the weekends bby! I havent been enjoying myself in school with the annoying flu and lack of energy. A few days ago, during flambe, i couldnt even carry the pan. My hand shook like crazy. Thankgod Mr Tan allowed to me to use two hands or else, i would have seriously made a mess out of the restaurant. School is school and the stress of having to study and all is unavoidable. Alot of tests are coming up, so which means, alot of studying have to be done.

Shanghai trip is drawing near bbys, omgeeeee! ^^

Maybe this wasnt a good decision frm the start my dear.

2010-07-21T18:22:00.003+08:00

There are somethings in this world which i wish i could just ignore or even forget.. but sometimes its just hard. Nowadays, i tend to let things go easily even though it hurts the hell out of me but at the end of the day, i feel the hurt piling up and its makes me miserable. Idk wht is happening to me this days. Is getting rid of the old me a bad idea?

Ive not been feeling well this few days and its draining out all my energy. I get tired easily and i dont feel like dg anything else but sleep. Other thn the fact tht school takes up alot of time, i havent been dg anything else. Oh fuck. I dont hang out, i dont go out. Thoh staying at home is a good thing, it just doesnt seem right. Haha wth.

I hate it when paranoia attacks. Believe me, when i get paranoid... alot of things happen in my head.

That aside, ive been busy thinking about when in the world my hp bill will come. Ive been saving up for it and at the end of the week, it would be gone bcos i spent it on food and ciggs. I want to settle it asap so i can save up for other important things. Fuck M1 man.

Im gaining weight like crazy this few weeks. Ive been eating non stop. So much for wanting to go on a diet, haha so mcm paham. But thn again, eating alot shows im happy. I dont think tht wrong aye?

I miss Hasnim. Well, the only time we get to spent together is on Sunday and i guess thts just better thn nothing. Things seems to be gg okay and i want it to stay this way. With the stress on school and whatnots, i cant take another heartbreak. I still do get upset over the fact tht we arent able to spent as much time together as i want, but what to do. Ns is part of his life. How i wish i can just tell him to screw NS. Haha. Whats more, he did tell me before he enlisted tht things arent gg to be easy when he's in camp. I was the one who said its gg to okay.. so pandai2 kau uh shasha.

I think im done here.

2010-07-20T08:53:00.002+08:00

What a timing to get sick. Hasnim is in camp, i sad lah obviously.

Honestly, i dont have anything to update. -.-

2010-07-19T11:34:00.000+08:00

Having you is more then enough♥

2010-07-14T01:20:00.004+08:00

Before you start saying things about ppl, shouldnt you mirror yourself first? Pls, dont tell me you've not done anything bad in your whole entire 18 years of living in this world. To say something tht drastic about someone is just low, to call someone names? Thts just even worst. Atleast my dear friend is making something out of her life, and what about you? You're pretty much living off your parents. Dont be a kid and start growing up. If you assume you werent at fault in the first place, why bother feeling the pinch? Only those who are guilty will feel it. So what does tht prove? There wasnt any problems with you in the first place, so why start? You knw.. i thought once secondary school days are over, all this backstabbing bullshit will go away along with it. But i guess my thoughts were wrong.

The reason why im doing this is bcos i feel like i should stand up for a friend not tht she cant stand on her own two feet. She's the best friend anyone could ask for. And to hear so many things being hurled at her at one go, i feel the hurt she's feeling too. I seriously hate it when anyone bullies a friend, and a gd friend at tht.

So bby, if you ever read this.. Dont let this lowlife bring you down. Because at the end of the day, she isnt much of friend at all to start with. Whats more, there always me and the others who love you and will always be there for you if you need us. So cheer up huns!

Side track abit.. i finally get to to talk to Hasnim. Now i feel so much better and i would prolly get a gd night sleep after this.

So bye. :D

2010-07-13T01:39:00.003+08:00

Hoping for things to go back to the way it was, would always remain as just hopes. I know everything wont be the same anymore, but why do i still wish for things to just change?

I havent been feeling myself lately. Idk why. I miss Hasnim, alot.

2010-07-09T22:44:00.001+08:00

Ive been heading home straight after school for the past 3 days and it seriously is boring. I dont have hangouts anymore and ive got no idea why. Okay maybe i do, everyone else has a freaking job. -.-

Ive not met Hasnim for 3 straight days either. He has other plans and well, doesnt make much diff thoh he is having his block leave. But nvm, im not the only person in this world he needs to spent time with. :D

Im bored, like seriously bored. Im so bored to the extent tht ive got nothing to update about. Haiya sucks uh like this, cb bye uh.

2010-07-07T00:12:00.002+08:00

I was sleepy awhile ago and then someone told me something and now i dont feel like sleeping at all. Thanks uh -.-

One moment you sound all happy, the next you sound as if i did something wrong. Aper ni? Cb.

Bye.

2010-07-05T23:26:00.002+08:00

Earlier on was the first day of school at the new campus. I was so wrong to get all excited about it. Everyone has been complaining about how the school is infested with typical guys and girls, which i know is true. I hate how huge the school is and how crowded everywhere is. But im more concerned about the fact tht my timetable is very very unacceptable. 10 hours a day in sch. Other then Monday which i start at 4pm, i strt mostly at 8. Okay, i dont mind about the starting early part. What i hate most is the time i end school which is pretty late, like 6 or 630 everyday. And you wouldnt believe this part.. i end school at 7 on Mondays. Ahhh best sngt.

Now tell me, how am i suppose to get a part time job if my time table is this bad? I do not wish to have my weekends burnt by working as im alr spending half of my day in school and obviously i need a life other when school. Oh gosh, this is very frustrating.

Hasnim is having his 1 week holiday now. I like ^^

Okay.... need to get some sleep. Long day tmrw. FML, really.

2010-07-04T18:32:00.002+08:00

Nicotine free! Im cashless and tht means ive got no happy sticks. Well, i hope bcos of this, im able to cut down on it. Hasnim has been nagging to me about quitting, so insyallah lah.

Hasnim has got guard duty today and will only end tmrw morning... ishk i so dont like. I dont have anyone to complain about my terrible stomachache now :( Despite this annoying stomachache, i feel like eating durians and ice cream. Yumszszsss. Unfortunately, yours truly is broke so i have gt no idea when i'll be able to get to eat all those things.

Eclipse isnt tht awesome actually. But i enjoyed it lah.

Ive been sleeping alot lately and ive got no idea why. I just wake up to eat and maybe watch abit of tv and gdnight everyone.. back to sleep. This is so not good. Im inviting the fat cells to invade my body. Ohhh man. But i guess, thankgd tht school is starting tmrw. Im not really looking forward to it thoh.

Im gg to go iron my uniform now. So bye.

2010-07-02T00:35:00.004+08:00

I am bored. Like very bored. Im supposed to be asleep but my stubborn eyes wont allow me too. Let's just hope im not gg to be late for Hasnim's POP later on, insyallah. I dont wish to disappoint tht boyfriend of mine by not attending so worst case scenario pon, im not gg to sleep. Hehe mcm p.

Help me, im bored. Class bbq later on and i just found out the three ppl who i hope is gg isnt gg. Haiyaa thank god i still got Khai Aidil and Firrr or else, dont even expect me to turn up. But then again, maybe i'll just drop by to the bbq bcos i want to spent the night under the stars with Hasnim. ^^

Okay now i should seriously try and sleep. I dont wish to look like a zombie.

2010-07-01T00:44:00.003+08:00

Whenever Hasnim calls me when he's in camp, it never fails to make me smile. Thoh its already been 2 months since he got enlisted, i still feel excited when it comes to weekends, i still check the phone whenever its past 930pm and i still smile from ear to ear when i hear Parachute on my phone bcos its him whose calling. I seriously dont know what i'd do if i dont have him in my life. ^^

Class bbq on Friday. Ive decided to go to the Bbq and miss gg out with the others on Saturday since Hasnim will have to book in on Saturday. Hasnim told me to pick one and well, class bbq it is then. I so wanted to go out with him this Saturday, but oh well..

School is starting soon. Part of me isnt really looking forward to it. Back to starting school earlier then everyone else and ending later then everyone else too. How awesome -.- Looking on the bright side, atleast i have something to do then be a bummer when it comes to holidays. Heheh.

I cant wait for Friday. Come quick pls bcos i want to see my boyfriend.

Im hungry, fuck.

2010-06-28T23:04:00.002+08:00

I hate the feeling of seeing Hasnim get into a cab and heading back to camp. I can just drop and cry bucketfuls i tell you. Haha it seriously is depressing but its not like i have a choice. So yeahhhhh. Just 4 days bby. Just 4 days and i get to see him everyday for a week. ^^

Helping out with school stuffs tmrw morning. Ive got no idea why im so semangat for this type of thing but its better thn having to stay at home for the whole day. Thank god Allie is gg too or else i dont think tht i'll be so semangat. Hehe.

Im running out of ciggs and money. And i wont be working for this whole week which seriously is such a disappointment. Ive got to save up for this coming Saturday. ECLIPSE BBY! Urgh fuck.

Bye uh. I miss my boyfriend alr.

2010-06-27T02:11:00.002+08:00

Thankyou Hasnim for today :D Someone was nice enough to make me happy by following me all the way to West Coast just to hang out and chill with Sissy and family. Hehe now i know why i love you so much. Heehehhe ^^

Work later. CHACHINGSSSSSSSSS!

Hasnim is booking in on Monday instead of later so im pretty happy about it. One extra day to text all day long and talk otp and perhaps meet him too. Ish i suker sekali. But all this is just talk, no hopes attached :D Haha.

I cant wait for school somehow. Why? So i wont have to stay at home and complain about being broke anymore. And also bcos im so lazy to go and work thoh i need the money. Anyway.. my hp bill is settled all thanks to Mama. Yayy her! Now i dont have to think about it for the whole month and start concentrating on saving up for other important things.

That aside, its late and again im wide awake and well, a little bit hungry. I SHOULD STOP EATING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT!

Okay, bye.

2010-06-26T03:05:00.002+08:00

Eversince the holiday started, ive been turning in early and waking up at noon. This is bad. Ive got no idea how im gg to wake up for school when school strts on the 5th. Im sure it'll be hard.

Anyway.. i cant sleep. And im watching vids about teens experiencing jailtime on youtube. A good lesson seriously. Go watch it. Theres like 14 parts to it and im almost done. Hehe smangat. But its good, really. The girls acting real cool but broke down the moment they're in jail.

Im hungry. Im so gg to eat after this. I wanted to eat after part 4 but i just couldnt stop watching this. Ive got no idea why.

I miss Hasnim :(

2010-06-25T01:59:00.002+08:00

I miss Hasnim.

MBS wasnt really fun, but i enjoyed the part where we made friends and all. It was tiring, like really tiring but time flew by real fast and the next thing i knew, ive got monehhhhh in my hands. I got to see Diana Ross sing live ^^ Hahahaah.

Wednesday night was awesome!

I miss my classmates. This holiday, all of us have not even went out once. Boring oi. Better make plans before the holidays ends and when all of us have got some cash to spare.

Im hungry, bye.

2010-06-23T00:33:00.003+08:00

Thoh i didnt sleep at all last night, i have yet to feel sleepy. This sucks. Im gg to be working again later on. AND I WILL GET MY PAY! Im so gg to shop i tell you. I so cant wait to get my hands on the cash. Hehehe. Then after tht...... i'll be broke.

For some unknown reason, i miss Hasnim. Hehe. Well, he's been really sweet to me this few days, calling me every night and talking to me nicely and all. Hmmm, there must be something gg on. But who cares, i should enjoy it while he's still this way bcos he's rarely like this eversince dah jadi MAN -.-

Bro is otp with a girl. OMGGGGGGGGGG! Okay, just weird lah. Hehe.

byebeyeeybyebeyebyeebyeb.

2010-06-22T05:29:00.002+08:00

Im supposed to be asleep right about now as im working later on but i cant seem to fall asleep. Its gg to be a draggy day for me since im keeping myself awake now. Fuck. Im just afraid tht if i sleep, it will be gdbye chachings! So i'll rather be safe then sorry.

Anywho.. Hasnim called me right after his route march which was at 1am. Hehe i is very happy bcos he still remembered to call me and wished me gdnight^^ Totally completed my day man this guy. And i miss him alr. Hheheheheheh miang.

Everybody, lets all say gdbye to my 2 weeks of freedom bcos Mama is coming back on Thursday. AWWWWWWWW MAN -.-

I want to shop, badly.

2010-06-21T01:46:00.001+08:00

I love you, thts all tht matters.

Sleepover at Syq's. Gg to have an awesome time here. Thn movie date with Bro later. Another rounf of karate kid for me. Hahahaha not wrong to catch it twice i suppose.

I've got new slippers^^ Thanks bby!

Bye.

2010-06-19T04:14:00.003+08:00

Ive had enough.

You took everything for granted. I dont need one second improvements, at all. Yes, it took a huge setback for me to realise a great deal of things. One after another.. my patience is just running thin. Moreover, ive never seen myself this way, ever. All i needed was a simple enthusiasm. Again, thts just too much to ask for. Somethings just dont change, dont you think?

Im done, seriously.

2010-06-18T13:44:00.003+08:00

ITS FINALLY FRIDAY!

Yknow.........
Ive got nothing to update actually. Im just excited tht its friday. I know i know, i said tht i shouldnt look forward to anything bcos it will only result in disappointment, but this excitement seems to be unavoidable. Hasnim is booking out today. Ive not seen him for like more than a week. So it explains the extreme excitement. Heheheheheheh cepat lah bookout pls. ^^

That aside, it seems to be draggy friday. Ive got no plans for later, just a normal stay home friday for me. Aidil and Khai are in camp which i was supposed to go but decided not to. Allie just txted me about bg bored, i know how you feel bby. Haha. But then... with no money in hand we cant do much. Esp we cant do the 3D's. Aper lagi? Dudok rumah uhhhh.

Mama said im starting to eat alot. Damn.

Bye.

Shasha the gemokzszsssz.

2010-06-17T03:54:00.005+08:00

I had so much in mind earlier on, now its gone.

Im getting fatter. Ive been eating alot. Like seriously alot. Ive got no idea why. I eat and eat and eat. Fuck, i need to maintain my weight and my figure as i cant grow any taller. I dont wish to look any bigger. Have to start resisting to temptations even when im surrounded by good food which happens to me everyday.

I miss Hasnim, cb.

[edited]
Its really pathetic to what the mindset of this ppl are. Just bcos im a girl, im responsible for all the house chores? Okay i dont mind helping out since Mama wont be able to come home for the next 2 weeks, but to let me shoulder all of it alone? Thts just low. Just bcos i dont hold a job, i wont feel tired? The dishes tht was left to dry two days ago was still there when i got home last night. My goddddddddddddddddddddd! Doesnt anyone bother to do it other thn me? No, i dont expect Papa to do it, i expect my selfish hopeless brother to do it. Why? Bcos he doesnt do anythhing at home except sleep and watch tv. It wont hurt to help me out.

Fuck this.

2010-06-16T11:37:00.003+08:00

Why? Why cant i sleep in? Its just 1137am and im already awake despite the fact i slept at 4am. So not fair. This is what happens when you're so used to waking up early due to school. But im usually late for school. Oh the irony! -.- The bad thing is, i cant go back to sleep. Fuck.

Over at Sissy's place. And guess what? Sissy and Wawa is still asleep. Ive got no idea what to do now. Help?

Gg over to Gran's later on. Gossip session with the makciksss! Heheh i cant wait lah. Another one of those family bonding session which i so love. Prangai gossip.

Hasnim called last night. I was overjoyed, believe me. Had a short talk and it was lights out for him, so with a heavy heart.. i had to hang up. Haha mcm cerite sedih plak. Lets hope i have another awesome weekend.

Marina Bay Sands is confirmed! ^^ CHACHINGSSSSSSSSSSSS!

bYe.

2010-06-15T12:43:00.002+08:00

Im gg to stop looking forward to anything bcos all of it just results in disappointment.

Im broke. Im broke. Im broke. I shouldnt be reminding myself but its like unavoidable bcos whenever i open my wallet, dust seems be coming out of it. I want to work, but unfortunately, theres no slots for part timers this week. How pathetic. So ive got one week to rot. Its like relieving the part moments. Heheheh.

Kwayteow goreng later! Heheheh.

Okay uh bye. I wanna go get ready.

2010-06-14T01:02:00.003+08:00

As disappointed i am, im just gg to brush it off. Some things just dont change. And who am i to judge? Ive been patient and ive never seen myself this patient for a long time. But pls, dont go overboard just bcos i keep myself mum. Im trying to be a better person, for you. Dont make me go back to my old ways, pls. Bcos you yourself know how hard it is to handle me. Even so, i love you very much.

Jdin's chalet? Awesome!

Bye.

2010-06-12T13:37:00.003+08:00

After all the looking forward for yesterday.. all i got was, NOTHING. I have got no idea where he is, whether he did book out or not. Now should i be worried or should i just brush it off?

Im gg to have my upmost fun later at the Jdin's chalet. I cant wait!

Bye.

2010-06-11T14:28:00.002+08:00

Schools out.

Im bored. Being at home means there is nothing to do. But on the bright side, i get to wake up later then normal ^^ I need a job. Actually, i need to start working bcos i already have a job. I need chachings, like lotsa it. I need to shop obviously bcos i have run out of things to wear. How wonerfully awesome is tht =.=

Its Friday. Hasnim is booking out today. Ive been looking forward for today the whole week thoh the most i can get out of today is just a simple phone call from him. And believe me, even with just tht, it would really make my day.

So plans for today? Nothing.

Bye.

2010-06-10T23:39:00.002+08:00

I am bored.
I am sleepy.
I am not tht hungry.
I am bored.
I am tired.
I am broke.
I am thinking of smoking.
I am bored. Oh wait, did i say tht already? -.-

Help!

Seriously.. today feels super draggy. Why?

2010-06-09T23:54:00.002+08:00

Tmrw is the last day of school. Then gdbye Clementi.. HELLO CCK!

Ive got no idea why im so excited for Hasnim's bookout. And ive got no idea why i miss him much more than i usually do. And i also have got no idea why i text him more thn often this week thoh he wont call or reply back. Weird, just weird.

I am officially 100% broke. & i miss my boyfriend.

2010-06-08T19:58:00.002+08:00

Excited for Friday.

Holidays will officially start on Friday. I CANT WAIT! But i dont see the point of holidays bcos i will have to work. Then on the 24th, theres an orientation at our new campus. See? No rest. But then still.... i cant wait for the freaking holidaysssss!

Hasnim will book out on Friday. HASNIM WILL BOOK OUT ON FRIDAY!

I feel like hanging out at this moment, but im so lazy to leave the house. Whats more, im supposed to be studying. But i dont feel like studying. Haiya, idk what to do lah.

I feel dehydrated. Is it the weather or is there something wrong with me?

Im broke. YAYYY! REPEAT LAGI! =.= Endure abit more shasha. Hasnim dah nak gaji ^^ Haha no lahhh, holidays is cmg soon, which means i can work and which means i wont be broke.

Okay, i want to go make up my mind on whether to stay home or go hangout with Aidil.
Bye!

2010-06-07T23:16:00.002+08:00

It feels like we just knew each other all over again. This feels heavenly. ^^

Hasnim booked out last night. The call he made to me really made my day. It was a short phonecall, but it really made me teary eyed. Heheh malu i.

I miss Hasnim alrd. Pre8 si mamat tu dah low. Nvmmmm, 4 days only. Ishhhk cepat pls.

Bsok sekolah. Knn.
Bye.

2010-06-06T03:53:00.002+08:00

Sober on a weekend.

Im pretty bummed out Hasnim isnt able to spent my bday with me. But that aside, im glad i got to spend it with my friends. Wishes at midnight, a drink, a mchicken meal, the fare back, and an awesome time. Thank you f&b kidssssss :] plus Aziffi and Shaf and Ayie. Hehehe.

Thankyou for all the wishes thru calls & text. Appreciate it alot.

Friends are supposed to be forever, but what if it isnt? Sometimes i think tht its a waste of time trying to make friendships work bcos in the end, all the effort is down the drain. Im happy with my classmates and all the other ppl who actually bothered to care for my well being. So why do i need you or you? Dont bother asking me who im referring to bcos its just a waste of my breath to say who it is. You've got your new friends, ive got mine. So why bother?

I miss Hasnim terribly.

2010-06-05T00:10:00.002+08:00

Great. Birthday plans are all cock up. And its not even my birthday yet. No one knows where to go, ive got to plan it myself and i feel like crap bcos Hasnim wont be there to celebrate with me. How wonderful. Some are working, some keeps saying idk. Now its like my 18th bday all over again. Fuck.

I hate this uh cb. Birthdays are supposed to be happy occasions. But at this point of time, im not close to bg happy. Nvm, ill just stay home and enjoy the day with my family.

2010-06-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

I miss Hasnim lah cbcbcbcbcbcbcb.

Meeting old friends later.

TWO MORE DAYS AND IM OLD.

2010-06-03T00:18:00.002+08:00

Why is it that when you were in camp and you didnt call me, i didnt feel so empty. And why is it tht now when you're having field camp and isnt able to call me, i feel so empty? Cb.

I miss you.

BILER NAK HOLIDAY NI?????

2010-06-01T03:12:00.001+08:00

Time check.. 313am????? Fuck.

Hasnim is away for his field camp. Cb dog.

Tdo shasha.. tdo!

2010-05-31T01:36:00.001+08:00

I felt like i had so much to say earlier on. But right now.. i just feel like saying one thing.

I miss you, Hasnim.

2010-05-28T23:48:00.002+08:00

YAYYYY! MOOSWINGS ARE BACK! =.= FuckMyLife seriously. I hate PMS. I seriously hate PMS. I seriously seriously hate PMS. No, i totally seriously hate PMS.

But this time, im gg to be a lil bit smart and just ignore whatever emotions and not let it run wild and i would stop myself from finding faults with anyone who crosses the line. Im gg to be extremely patient and im not gg to let this fcking emotions control my mind. Patient shasha.. patient.

Accompanied Zie shopping for her DnD outfit. Then headed to NUH to visit Clinton. The day was okay, i guess.

Im fcking broke. Ive got no idea how im gg to pay for my bill. This sucks. Im gg to work more frequently next week to pay for my bill. Tk boleh sia ni mcm tkd duet slalu. Mati bro.

Tmrw.. gdbye long hair.

Now.. gdbye everyone.

2010-05-28T00:36:00.002+08:00

ITS FRIDAY! THTS MEANS IT THE START OF MY WEEKENDS!!!!

Ive got no idea why im so excited for the weekends. There isnt anything to look forward to. Okay maybe ader uh, hasnim book out what. Other thn tht, im broke and bg broke means there isnt much i can do. Yes, pathetic. I desperately need a job. Like a real part time job bcos no money means no life. Fcukadoodoo.

Anywho, a friend of mine got into an accident. I have yet to see him but ive heard how his condition is. His okay but his injuries are quite bad. Anyway, get well soon bro! Insyallah you will recover fast and go back to your active self. Dont worry too much aights? :) And to Clinton too, get well soon!

Kakcda suddenly appeared at the doorstep with her family. I panicked awhile bcos i was happily watching tv when suddenly i heard the sound of the gate, i seriouslu thought it was a ghost or something or perhaps a burglar. So i put up a brave front and opened the door, check2 my own sister. Scare the hell out of me sia this one. Hahahah coward.

So plans for today? Visits to hosp. Hahahha bnyk org saket uh bro.

Alrightsss, need to find something to do. Bye.

2010-05-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

Ive got a feeling Hasnim isnt gg to call me tonight. Well.. maybe he's tired or maybe his phone decided to shut down on him. Whatever it is, i is very sad tht i wont be hearing his voice tonight. Ive got so much to tell him today and in the end.. nothing. But nvm, there is still tmrw as he is booking out and ill have the whole weekend to tell him all my stories. So shasha.. be patient.

School was boring, with a capital B. Seriously. It was totally a waste of time to be in school. Started off with a mocktail competition which we werent allowed to watch, so we just sat at Training Restaurant all the way frm 8 till 1055. Short break, came back and more slacking. Then left for another break at 115, came back at 2. Was suppose to have lessons but then there was no classrooms tht we could use and so we were dismissed. Now tell me, isnt tht wasting time? I should have just stayed home.

Had lunch after tht with Hazli Roi and Aidil, Liyana's mom treat. Headed to their place after tht, and here i am at home waiting for someone who is supposed to call but i know wont call. Ishhhk.

Tmrw will be another short day in school. Theory for 5 hours cnfem ZzzzZzZzZz, then at 2.. Byebye school! Hello weekends!

Okay now... byebye everybody.

2010-05-25T23:29:00.005+08:00

Tmrw is wednesday. Meaning? I have to go school tmrw. As much as im dreading it, i still have to go thru it. What i heard earlier on about school really scares me. Im one of the top 4 names to be kicked out frm the course. Wtf? Honestly, ive never really done anything wrong. Other then the fact tht im on mc for this two days, i didnt know tht rest wouldnt come to school either. So its totally not my fault lah wahlau. Plus, i dont really sleep in class or do anything stupid in school. Now, explain to me why i have to be kicked out. Frustrating much?

Tmrw is wednesday. Meaning? Hasnim is booking out on THURSDAY! Which is in two more days. Yayy! I cant wait for tht. I keep getting excited when it comes close to weekends. So this seriously is a huge change. Heheheh.

I should be asleep at this hour but unfortunately, i cant get to sleep. All thanks to taking a power nap earlier in the afternoon. How great -,- But im gg to try and sleep so as to avoid bg late for school tmrw. Even if i dont think im dg anything wrong, i should atleast make an effort to be on time for school and attend school regularly even im really sick and have to force myself.

Oh and im finally charging my ipod. Heheheh. Ive been using my phone as a source of music for the past week and the batt has been gg crazy. So whats the point of hvg an ipod if i dont use it right? Oh ya.. I FEEL LIKE THROWING MY BB BATT TO THE WALL. Its nuts, seriously. Sometimes, even after charging it, i leave it for awhile and suddenly.. jeng jeng jeng! Batt low. Fucker sia this battery. Issshk.

My cough has yet to go away. The running nose has decided to stop running but the cough.. man its irrittating. Help me laaah, pain yknw my throat. Maybe i should cut down on the happy sticks? Heheheh.

So my friend.. gdbye.

2010-05-24T22:54:00.002+08:00

Talking otp for just 15-30 mins each night is so little, but ive got no other choice and i have to make do with it bcos its the only time i get to hear him. So ive got to appreciate all this little moments tht i have. Ishhhhk thursday come quick pls.

Im on two days mc, all thanks to the flu. Mama literally forced me to go to the clinic. Haha i hate meds. And Hasnim said tht even if im sick, i should go to school as long as im sick. So now.. im on mc. Where can go sch? Heheheh.

Accompanied Mama to her therapy earlier, i kinda sympathise with her for what she's gg thru now. Be patient mom, you're gg to get well soon. Patience is virtue and no matter what, you have the family to help you. So dont worry. Love ya!

Okay bye. Want to curl up and cry bcos i miss Hasnim.

2010-05-24T00:50:00.002+08:00

I dont need a million words to tell you how i feel. Bcos to put it simply, i would be nothing without you, Muhd Hasnim. :)

2010-05-23T01:21:00.003+08:00

My nose seems to be running everywhere. Hehe stupid flu.

My day with Hasnim yesterday was great. It was short but awesome. No matter what, aku ttp syg kau uh beb. :D

Errrr, working later and im still wide awake. All thanks to my awesome nose. Thanks uhhhh. Let's hope i get to meet Hasnim before he books in later. Every moment counts skrg.

Bye.

2010-05-21T23:57:00.003+08:00

ITS MUTHAFUCKING FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY BBY!

I like i like i like i like i like. :D

And bsok i get to meet Hasnim uh aper lagi. But before tht, must go all the way to Vivo to get my project done which is due on Monday. So not looking forward to the project part. My research seems to be gg nowhere, therefore im gg to give up. Im just gg to do all the writing tmrw or something.

K K K K K L drift. Mcm merepek je. The drifting is so tk perlu. But then.. if they dont drift, then it wont be called KL Drift. It would be called KL Drug. Go watch, you'll know what i mean. Hehe.

Okay bye.

2010-05-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

Its late and i should be asleep but i cant. I slept thruout the afternoon and now im wide awake. How wonderful -_- And ive got a long day at school later. Im just gg to have to endure the day.

Hasnim is booking out tmrw! I seriously cant wait to see him. :)

My lazy hormones are starting to act up. And if it doesnt go away.. gdbye on turning over a new leaf. So ive got to freaking buck up like .......... now!

Okay bye.

2010-05-19T12:00:00.002+08:00

Someone who is i miss very much will be booking out very soon. And who is tht person? MY TWIN BROTHER! Hehehehhe :) 2 more days! Yayyyy! It hasnt been easy not having someone to share the day happenings and all the worries and troubles with but i dont mind bcos at the end of the day, i know i have him to lean on even though he's not here. Bcos no matter what, he is still my boyfriend and i love him very very very much.

Look at the time. And im at home. What happened to school? Ive got no idea at all. Hehheh. Next tuesday theres rugby training all the way at ITE Simei. Die sia, seriously. Im nervous as hell bcos ive got no idea what the whole thing is about. I joined it bcos it sounds fun, its just touch rugby anyway. I dont think it would be so hard, right?

Anywho.. other then school, ive been enjoying abit of life here and there. So life isnt tht bad huh? Aper nak jadi.. aper nak jadi.. Hehehh.

Im gg to be staying home today. For the idk how many times.. IM BROKE. Now i really mean seriously plus chop stamp broke. No cash in hand at all. Baek shasha. Ive got no idea how im gg to pay for my bills and how in the world am i gg to survive.

Okaylah tu je.

2010-05-17T23:06:00.001+08:00

Idk why but im super exhausted. Im gg back to sleep.

Why am i here?
4 MORE DAYS SUCKAAAAAAS!

2010-05-16T02:50:00.003+08:00

You're not the only one living in this world yknow. So puhleaassseee~

Well well well. Ysterday was another awesome day. Karaoke with the school clique and town-ed after tht. I enjoyed yesterday so freaking much. Thanks guys! Shall do it again some day bbys! Hahah shasha dah ke pulau tekong. =.=

I is pissed off. But its not worth talking about it here. Cb uh eh.

Okay bye.